Block Party - Like Eating Glass
After my ex-boyfriend's mom died he wouldn't stop playing this song. That was a difficult time.
I feel like for some reason in their darkest moments my friends lean the hardest on me.
I take it because for some ridiculous reason I think that I'm meant to put these broken people back together.
And once they're well. They go on.
That time was different. I had to leave. It was too broken and dark.
I tried.
But it was like he was trying to fill up that giant void in his life with me.
(Maybe my mistake was letting him.)
So I gave and I gave and I gave until I had nothing left to give.
But I think that really ended up hurting him. And he still blames me for a lot of things.
You can't plug up and distract your feelings forever.
I had to draw the line when after six months after
it happened he started driving by my house to see if my bedroom light was on.
He lived in the Woodland Hills and I lived downtown.
I'm not sure why I'm thinking about this.